eh ehm

some say i don't look like a lover.
but it's probably cause each time i see you i run for cover

i run because it drives me insane when i hear your name because every feeling i ever had for you comes running back

all i wanted was love
to be loved
to feel love
to understand love

but we were never in love, but oh we could have been

i always feel like i'm almost over you.

but some things remind me of you even if i don't want them to.

the time we went shooting. the bowling and how embarrassingly bad i was at it. the mini golf and all of the golf balls that ended up in the bushes. the pizza. the ice-cream, i'll never forget your favorite flavor. The star gazing. The late nights on the field. The talks in my car. And of course the 2am kisses and the cuddles.  Ugh too many reminders

they say good things take time. but i'm known for not having much patience

the truth is

truth is..

i feel like i am apart of the broken dreams club.
i find myself getting my hopes up too fast too often

and people tell me i get too caught up in things that don't matter

but love only tears people apart and feelings are temporary

and hearts were made to shatter.

and i welcome myself into February

realizing that real life is stranger than my dreams and if i had to explain why, you wouldn't understand.

but honestly some times i just don't want to know, cause somethings are better left unsaid.

my atelophobia is starting to take over like a disease while i do is listen to music and overthink everything.

but yeah life's crazy.